Be happy about nothing.

Sunday 23rd Feb 2014

I hoping my post will be a bit therapeutic for myself, if not right now, then for myself to look back on in the future. 

I've been in such a stressed unhappy mood all day. I got an email off a staff member at my university and ever since then I've just been a bit down. Also every sunday evening i travel back to my house in Leeds, as i go home at every opportunity i.e. every weekend. But i really didn't fancy a train journey tonight so ill go back tomorrow, giving myself the chance to have some more home comforts tonight. 

I'm just wanting to write down some thoughts and feelings I've had today, in order to give myself some perspective and to realise its not all bad.… 


Uni is really stressing me out at the moment, like really badly. But I just need to remember that it will be over soon. The end is in sight, just a few more months to go! So i just need to reminding myself that so what if i don't do as well as I'd hoped. It is not the end of the world. Even if I think it is at the time. I just need to remember there are better, more important things in my life, meaning right in this moment but also in my future. I'll probably read this back in 10 years time and remember all my worrying and crying and I'll think why did i worry so much when i have all this crap to worry about now. Life moves on, and I’ll need to too. 

But I am so happy with my life other wise. My family is so great and all healthy, and they are all supportive of everything I do and what I want to do. My boyfriend is amazing and makes me so happy. I love all the times i have with my family and all the times i have with my close friends. But if I'm ever feeling a bit down i can always rely on my boyfriend to give me a cuddle and to go on a lovely walk with my dog. So if it does ever get too tough for myself, I'll focus on those positive aspects of my life.

So even though I'm stressing and keep getting upset, i need to know that it will pass. 

I will dazzle, I will outshine them all.

Sat 22^nd Feb 2014

Sorry I've been rubbish with posting! I have had a busy start to the year, I'm in my last year at university so obviously i had lots of exams to stress and worry about, then the new semester started and such so.

But I thought I would type a quick blog whilst I have some spare time tonight, and whilst I have actually done something with my day!

Today I had such a lovely day.

First of all, my boyfriend and I made blueberry pancakes this morning, which were gorgeous and just so nice to have for a change. I know its pancake day soon but it was nice to have them anyways. I saw something online about them when I woke up and that made me really crave them.

My boyfriend and I planned on going on the Tolkien Trail with my cocker spaniel in Preston, so we drove all the way to near Clitheroe from my house taking about 40 minutes and then parked up in a small little village.  However we could not find any of the paths or any signs or ways the go when we got there, so instead we just ended up driving to the Sandyhurst college and then wandered round their grounds and fields.

The buildings of Sandyhurst College were amazing; they were just big old-fashioned grand buildings. There was also an antique fair on so we thought we would have a quick nosey in, but it was £5 in so of course we didn’t pay that! Haha. So we walked round all the woods, nearly falling over several times in the fallen trees, and we all got stuck in lots of bogs and mud baths. Pennie also almost gave a pheasant a heart attack as she charged through the bushes and trees. Don’t think many people walked through the woods as there were no paths or walk-throughs so definitely don’t think that pheasant was expecting us! But it was actually really nice to just see Pennie really enjoying herself, she much prefers chasing after rabbits and rummaging through the bushes instead of being surrounded by other dogs and people on busy fields or parks. Don’t think I would drive all that way out again but it was a lovely day and so great to just spend time with my boyfriend and dog.

We nipped into a place where our friend works on our way back home, which was lovely just to go say a quick hello to her and to see where she works. And of course we bought some cheeses from their food hall ha. When we got home we had to bath pennie before doing anything else as she was covered in mud and twigs as per usual.

Tonight has been nice and relaxed, we watched Before Sunset which is a cute romantic indie film about a couple of people, and we ate lots of homemade curry and sat cuddled up with my cocker spaniel, we definitely succeeded in tiring out the dog!

I'm feeling pretty lousy at the moment as my sinuses are playing up again this weekend so think ill just have an early night. Struggling to breathe so don't think my sleep will be that great tonight sadly. 

I'll try keep posting more when i do exciting things with my days.

Katy x